Don't Call Me That

DON'T call me your best friend!

The only reason you think I'm your best friend is because I'm the one who's invested the most in you. But the truth is that you put every woman in your life before me... and then you expect me to put you before EVERYONE in mine!

I don't care that you're "in love with our friendship". I don't feel loved or respected by you at all... I feel like I'm simply a convenience to you and I'm done.

And I know you warned me about you... told me to stay away for my own good. I know I didn't listen and I'm trying not to blame myself for that. I thought I was strong enough to love you... to show you that someone could love you.

But in the process of trying to put you ahead of myself, I lost control. I lost logic. I lost myself... again. It got to the point where I needed you because you MIGHT need me. Ugh! That sounds so disgusting to me now.

Of course you're going to turn this around and make me the bad guy and call me all sorts of unmentionables for making you feel abandoned. But guess what! I'm too busy draining the poison from my veins to worry about YOU right now. For the first time in a long time I need to worry about ME without regards to how it affects you.

So don't you dare call me your best friend because you have NO clue what that means!