Recent Thoughts

I wish I loved more unconditionally
I wish I understood intentions 100% of the time
I wish I communicated only what I mean
I wish I always spoke to encourage

I tend to waste lots of time
I tend to wait for people to come to me
I tend to speak unnecessarily loudly
I tend to instruct, rather than listen

I miss having a guy in my life
I miss the ease of life-before-grad-school
I miss everyone when they're not near me
I miss the predictability of California

I want to keep up with all my friends
I want to talk with God constantly
I want to be the friend people come to
I want to know the truth about all things

I don't really keep my life in order
I don't really know how to "be pursued"
I don't really know how people see me
I don't really think that "the guy for me" is out there

I hope that my friends know me
I trust that I'm in the right place
I believe that I will make it through grad school
I know that someone better than me is in charge of it all