I was just thinking about graduation years and how old people might think I am based on when I graduate from this program. Since I tend to look younger than I am, I was figuring that if they know I've graduated, but I look really young, they'd probably assume I'm the youngest I could be with a degree, meaning I went straight through.
So I thought about that for a second, and I realized that I would have been 24 if I had gone straight to grad school and done the normal 2-yr thing. But I'm 24, now. So then I thought, how old will I actually be when I graduate? 26! 26?!? Ew!
For some reason, 26 strikes me as too old. As if I should have done something else with my life by now. And I find this interesting because last week in Human Diversity we were talking about ageism, age categories, and the expectations of certain age groups based on culture, history, religion, etc.
Several of the ladies in my program are 26/27. And whenever they make comments about being "old," I yell at them. Okay, well I don't yell... but I chastise them in a certain fashion because they're NOT old, and far from it.
And truth be told, I did have different expectations for my life at this age. I've let go of some of it, but obviously not all of it. Five years ago (when I was almost 19 - pre-Jason), my plan was to get my BA at 22, get married at 22/23, start having kids at 25/26, have 2/3 kids by the time I was 30... and then I don't know.
By the time I graduated from Biola, I didn't care about the getting married part and grad school had become more important... and though turning 24 last month didn't feel like that big of a deal, I have a feeling that 25 is going to feel different.
What's with the expectations? That plan doesn't make any sense for me anymore, so why can't I completely let it go? Grr... TWENTY-SIX IS NOT OLD!!!!!!
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thank you for that last line.
25 hit me REALLY hard, and I don't wish that for you. i'm definitely dreading 26 - and sadly, it is not that far away *yikes!
my plan was to be married right after graduation, have my first baby by 25, and be done with all of it by 30.
As it turns out, I did get married young, but the rest of the plan just went down the drain. If graduation were ONE week earlier, I'd also be graduating at 26, but no...they had to push it out by 7 days, so I'll be 27! OMG - 27!
See, I really do feel like that is old, until I look at some of the other girls...anyway the point of my nonsensical rambling is that I'm feelin' ya sister. :)
I think you're only really old when your hands turn wrinkly and become spider like. Like the hands of Diane Feinstein. When I'm old, I hope I have hands like hers. Then at halloween, I'd dress them up like spiders and scare all the little children away, leaving me with all the candy for myself. The enda
I'm scared to turn 25 having still accomplished nothing.
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