Last day at work...

Today was my last day at work. I brought in two different cookies (my newest recipes), and I wrote a little note next to the plates on the table and everyone went crazy... it was really cute. Christine demanded one recipe in hand before I was allowed to leave (which, of course, was impossible, but I'm e-mailing it to her -and 7 other people who asked for it). Christine's the one that earlier in the week had pouted and turned to walk away when I told her my last day was today. And everyday this week Jackie has asked me not to leave. Its really quite sweet.

I've been here for 6 months... wow, that's really hard to believe... and it surprised me how many people seemed to be genuinely distraught that I was leaving. It still comes as a great shock to me when people like me... like really genuinely enjoy me. I don't know why... I just remember my brief trip to Ohio last October and first realizing how shocking it was to me that Chester (who rarely likes anyone) liked me and got all upset that I was leaving after spending only 3 evenings with me.

Anyway, I just don't get it. Maybe I'm still paranoid that people find me annoying and overwhelming and childish. And I guess that I assume that if you spend enough time with me, you get over that and learn to love me anyway. Alecia, Katie, Ellen, and Rosie are always telling me that they find me completely entertaining and fun to be around, but I just don't get it. Actually, "Johnny" used to tell me that, too. And it was something that was really attractive to me... man, that's dangerous ["Johnny" update: I recently saw his brother and was told that he can sometimes be found at the exit of the freeway begging for money. Apparently, he can make $100 a day... but that just makes me sick... and I'm happy never to see him again].

On my way home form work today (returning to the actual subject at hand), I almost cried. I had to walk around to all the cubicles and say goodbye. They all wanted me to keep in touch so I promised to send my boss e-mails (including the recipe) so that they would know how I was. I just thought that was so weird. I didn't think that many people would care that I was leaving... I just... ya, it was surprising... and after spending so much time just finding their files, copying their files, and filing their files for them, I was definitely pleasantly surprised.