I GOT IN!!!

Today, I checked the mail twice... and the second time it was there. I saw a large envelope and I grabbed it immediately. And as soon as I saw that it was from WUSTL, I froze. I didn't want to open it... and yet I wanted to know what it said so badly.

So I called my mom. She told me to open it. So I did. I've been accepted and they're giving me $2,000 a semester for 2 years. Its not as much as I had hoped, but maybe its okay. I realized today that I really just don't want to go anywhere else... and so maybe I should just go for it and borrow money from my parents. I'm realizing that money isn't really a big deal... and furthermore, its never an obstacle for God. And this school literally fell out of the sky and into my heart... I didn't even see it coming... and usually for me, that means its where God wants me.

So I'm going. I filled out the FAFSA and looked up apartments today... and I still haven't packed a thing and I'm leaving early in the morning for work... guess who's getting no sleep tonight...

My friends have all had differing reactions. Most were very excited... some just realizing that I'm inevitably leaving and they don't really like it... but they know I should be happy... so I know its okay to be happy.

But I'm also scared. Out. Of. My. Mind. I leave in 6 weeks, so I won't have time to visit or meet anyone that I would be living with. And I've never been to the campus before, though I have been to the city... and I have family nearby... but I'll be alone... totally alone... doing everything for myself... its exciting and terrifying at the same time... but the most exciting part to me is what God's going to do with me.