I hate pain!

I hate pain so much that I take very few physical risks. Snowplowing is the safest way to ski... don't even think of trying to coax me onto a black diamond...

But sometimes, pain happens... you fall, something falls on you... and though you weren't asking for it by doing something stupid, you're in physical pain. Because there are some thing that hold risk, but you just can't avoid them... like taking a shower.

So this morning, I was already in the shower when I remembered that my shampoo bottle was empty. Silly, forgetful Michal. So I step out of the shower(which is also the bathtub), take a couple steps across the floor, open the cabinet and grab an extra bottle of shampoo.

As I take the steps back to the shower, I am very aware that I could fall getting back into the shower... so I am cautious, but not as worried as I should be. You see, this is not a rare thing for me to do. I always end up retrieving something I forgot in the middle of my shower.

So one foot goes in, and I shift my weight to place my other foot and all of a sudden, I know I'm falling. However, it is also not completely uncommon for me to lose my footing and begin to fall... but 9 times out of 10 I can find a way to catch myself as my heart pounds... my body and mind full of adrenaline. Well, today was number 10. I fell. My shin hit the edge of the tub and my elbows kept my head from being more than bumbed by the tub wall.

And now I'm in pain. Both kness are bruised and my right shin quickly swelled close to the size of a golf ball. It now looks normal at first glance, though slightly discolored... an image that will soon change for the worse. And the minor ache, I can handle... its constant and easy to ignore. Its the pain in each knee as they bend and hit my capris as I walk up or down the stairs... and its the throbbing in my shin if I stand for too long that bother me... grrr.... I hate pain!