The theme of my life recently: Contemplation and socializing... actual those just might be my normal themes.... but recently there have been 3 thoughts of prominence and significance:
A) What do I want to do with myself this year (or so) before I go back to grad school? Social Work position for experience and hands on training? Or something more along the lines of living a couple of my dreams during this time of freedom and lack of responsibilities? Would I want to work on a cruise ship? Or train to be a bartender (believe me, its crossed my mind more than you can imagine)? Or travel Europe and go broke?
B) Where do you draw the line between setting yourself apart from the destructive ideals of the world, keeping your mind pure, and making a statement about how your faith in God effects the choices you make AND appreciating fine art, being familiar with your culture and their experiences, and being open and familiar with their world so that they can feel your love and listen to your ideas about their lives in order to show that there may be a better way to live life than they have found? This complex question is plaguing me deeply at the moment as I contemplate whether or not to see the movie Brokeback Mountain...
C) Why is it that all of a sudden I feel ready to date again? Yesterday, I was still petrified at the idea of starting a new relationship. But today, though no one is in sight, I feel that I am no longer afraid and that I would welcome it.... in fact I wish it. Is this a real change or am I merely subject to hormonal fluctuation?
2 comments:
Somedays I'm ready...and others I'm petrified. Ask me on any day and I will likely have whatever answer. I'd wait it out a few days to see.
As to the movie...I want to see it. I think pushing the envelope artistically is a good thing. Does that mean that I have to agree with the movie? No. But I can critique it artistically. Where the characters believable? Did they develop (the whole dynamic/static question)? Was it well shot? Good lighting? Was anything trying to be said with the angles?
I guess the biggest thing, not to make this comment a novel, is that you see it with a teachable spirit. Not that you'll always learn something...but if you go in willing to be moved, willing to let the Holy Spirit appear if He is there...then, you got something. And if He's not, He's not. But at least you went in willing to See. Some don't even open they're eyes, you know? And how can they point fingers and something they can't even See?
K, I'm done.
lets go get cocktails together at maggianos next week when i get home...we'll go when my sister is bartending, and she can tell you what its like, plus them maybe she'll give us free drinks!
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