Back to Life...

...back to reality... back to the here and now, oh yea...

I'm back to trying to do homework and back to procrastinating until it’s late in the evening and I know I'll be up late and then up early for class. Oh joy!

Jehaan was on campus today. He just recently returned from visiting family in India and of course he's here to see Julie. I'm hoping we'll be able to hang out later this week before he goes home and then heads off to school.

When I saw Jehaan on campus, I went over to say hi and to pester him a little and I noticed that I can be a little threatening and at times overbearing when I'm just kidding. The problem arises with the person I'm talking to knows that what I'm kidding them about has hurt my feelings in the past. That might not make sense and seem a little too vague but pointed, but the point is I think I scared Jehaan half to death and I don't think he quite knew how to react to me... course I'm not sure if he ever knew.

What I'm getting at is that aside from feeling a little more self-aware than usual this semester, I think I'm also a little less restricted in my personality then I have been in my recent past. I think its good (as long as I compassionately communicate with people so that they do not misunderstand my intentions or feelings), but for the people who don't see me often enough to know how I've grown in certain areas, it can scare them because they fear reoccurring instances from the past that they felt were undeserved and difficult to deal with (but this is merely speculation).

Wow, I'm all about the vague but pointed descriptions tonight, aren't I? Well, its time to go back to reading. 'Night.