At the time, "devastated" seemed too strong and dramatic... because in the grand scheme of things its really not that big of a deal. However, in my world, where relationships with people are everything to me and I've been privileged enough to never be in want of physical necessities, "devastated" is actually the perfect descriptor.
No, we were never officially a couple, but we dated for two months, saw each other five times a week and had daily contact of some sort. He never even kissed me (which should have been my first clue), but we pranced around like a couple at HIS leading... or at the very least, his willing consent.
So in the interest of taking my own advice and naming all the feelings I've had in the last 12 days, here's a list:
DAY 1
~ stupefied
~ anguish
~ humiliated
~ heartbroken
~ dismayed
~ powerless
~ despair
~ devastated
DAY 2
~ tearful
~ lonely
~ lifeless
~ aching
~ grieved
~ devastated
DAY 3, 5, 7, 9, etc
~ perplexed
~ numb
~ rejected
~ subdued
~ devastated
DAY 4, 6, 8, 10, etc.
~ resentful
~ indignant
~ devastated
1 comment:
poor marianne, I must commend you throughout the 2 month long "investigation" for letting him lead. I think you did well. Though I think it's hard to discover that though he was initiating, then rescinded, and you didn't give more than was required, I know it still hurts. I'm proud of you regardless -- for being brave enough to give it a shot. You're still a wonderful woman!!!
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