Its been six years since I celebrated Valentine's Day with a special someone... but given my generally joyful disposition and my love of pink and candy, I have always made the best of it with friends. However, this year felt different: I no longer have any excuses for being single. I am no longer preoccupied with grad school, I have not been relocating frequently, and I'm not grieving a previous relationship (my excuses over the last six years). I'm just single.
And this year, I had my eye on a specific someone (which is not uncommon). Unfortunately, he could use all three of my previous excuses. So, he's not dating anyone in particular... he's just flirting with everyone in general. And as much as I enjoyed the parts of my Valentine's Day where he was flirting with me, they do not overshadow the parts of my Valentine's Day when I watched him flirting with others.
And so, I have come to the conclusion that I am no longer interested in being flirted with. I want to be adored... and I'm determined to keep my heart from falling for anything less. I think I'm finally ready to aim higher, to expect more, and to be genuinely adored by a man who can prove that he is worthy of my time and affection.
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