Stupid

I wish I didn't have a brain. I wish I didn't think I was smart. Because with the brain I have, my pride is a pain in the butt at a "bottom of the totem pole" job like I have.

When I ask questions and want to understand why they want things done a certain way, I just end up looking defiant and then they get frustrated. I wish I didn't think things through... I wish that I would jump without thinking when they tell me to.

But I can't just turn off my brain... so I wish it was dumb... didn't think things through... didn't try to find a more efficient way... just did what was asked....

I hate upsetting them... but I hate it when they treat me like I'm a moron. So right now, I wish I really was a moron... because then I wouldn't know any better.