I went to college group today and I remembered that I wanted to see X-III tomorrow (opening day). So at the end of group I kind of made an announcement asking if anyone wanted to go and see it tomorrow. Then they all tell me that they're going tonight... to the midnight showing. That rocks! I was on cloud nine. I start talking to one of the girls that was going ( a girl I don't know very well... most of my closer friends weren't interested, so that's why I was desperate to find people to go with) and telling her how excited I am and asking about details.... time and place... when we're buying tickets... she didn't seem to have any answers so I assumed that those plans hadn't been made and since I wasn't in charge, I didn't have to take care of it.
Well, we usually all hang out at church until they kick us out at 10pm and then we go over to BJ's at Oakridge and hang out there... so the people started to head over and I stayed at church with my closer friends. I was the last person to show up at BJ's because I stopped for gas (in case we had to drive somewhere for the movie), and then I drove around the parking lot 3 times unable to find a spot. I even saw one of the guys walking somewhere away from BJ's and I started to wonder if the group was somewhere else... or that maybe I had missed the movie people.
So I finally gave up and went to a parking lot further away and ended up parked right next to my friend Josh... so I was relieved because I knew I wouldn't have to walk out there alone. So I show up at BJ's and I find the X-III crew as well as some of my friends... but the guy I saw walking away was back and it looked like he had bought the wrong tickets for X-III and he was trying to trade with people in the restraunt. So I asked the girl if they had already bought tickets and they said that they had... and that the showing was sold out... but I could buy a ticket for a later showing and hope to trade with someone... but I knew I couldn't risk it because there's no way I would go to the movie at 12:20 all by myself (and likewise, who would trade for one ticket)... I don't go to movie theaters alone... I just don't.
So the girl was concerned and they wanted to help me but really... it was too little too late. Why didn't they nudge me before they left and say, "Hey, Michal, we're going to buy tickets right now... do you want to come?" So I just walked to the other end of the table feeling sad that I really wasn't going to get to see X-III with people after all. I sat down at the end next to Josh with no one was across from me. I stared out the widow for a while and then my eyes welled up and the tears fell. Josh really didn't know what to do with me. He's only ever seen me happy... He kept looking at me with this helplessly pained expression and I tried to tell him it was okay... that I get dissappointed really easily and that he shouldn't try to fix me because it wouldn't work (never the less, he started looking for movie times on his own phone hoping that seeing another movie with him would console me... I have to say that was very sweet).
I was SOOOOO dissappointed... I'd gotten my hopes up for nothing... and I just sat there staring out the window... trying to wipe away tears so that I didn't make the other guys sitting near me uncomfortable. At one point I looked at the guy across from me and said, "I bet you've never seen a girl cry over X-men before." He laughed... and that helped me, too.
The whole day had felt like a day of dissapoinments... seado-ing... to no seado-ing... X-III... to no X-III... hang out with friends.... to "we're going to bed early". There were no consolation prizes and I balled my eyes out the whole way home... because when one pain hurts enough... they all come rushing back.
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Wow. I've been in that place before. It really sucked when one of my best friends was getting married and I was sitting with her and a few other girls one day and it became abundantly clear that I was not going to be included in the wedding plans. I mean, it seemed like she asked everyone except for me! It was painful and I had to hold my tears for hours. On the way home I bawled my eyes out because I felt so embarrassed that I wasn't chosen. But I know she would have felt awful if she knew how I felt so I never told her. But come on, why do people need bridesmaids anyway? I didn't! I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings! Anyway, sorry you missed the X III viewing with your crew. That sort of thing...sucks.
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