Drama, Jurors and Spanish

First, my spanish CD's and books came today and the CD's are going directly in my car and the flashcard-making-frenzy has begun... I'm still WAY excited!

Second, I had jury duty this week, but I didn't get called in until today and then they filled the jury before my name was called, so I was dismissed. All I did was sit around for two hours, leave the courthouse and then come back and sit around for another three hours. It really wasn't that bad... the seats were pretty comfortable, too.

Third, I was driving to and from the courthouse and listening to music on the radio (as usual)... do you ever start a naration in your head? ...like, you're in a movie or writing a book about your life. I started doing it in 6th grade, and I catch myself doing it fairly often.

Well, today, the naration in my head was accompanied by a soundtrack from the radio and I started thinking about all the drama in people's lives... and how I love watching drama on TV... and even though I was aware of my cravings for drama in my own life, it didn't really concretely hit me WHY I crave drama... I thought I just might be kind of crazy... but I figured it out: drama/trama/heartache all make you FEEL!

The rest of life kind of goes by without you even noticing and then drama hits and you FEEL... you're ALIVE... and you're AWARE of every moment. And even when the feelings are painful... you're still FEELING, and I think we crave that more than we know... we crave LIFE... and we don't want it to pass us by. And I just thought it was so interesting how the world(no more than I) relies largely on the drama of relationships to EXPERIENCE life, but I don't have to... well, nobody has to, really... we have another alternative... if we choose to take it... I sure wish I paid more attention to it...