Relationship Philosophising

So... I've been single for exactly 16 months... to the day. In that time I have been through quite a process in the ending of one relationship and the renewal of myself in many ways. And in that time, I of course payed attention to the guys around me... and had crushes... all pretty insignificant or short-lived because of circumstances. And I think I had almost forgotten what its like when I really really like someone... until last week.

Unfortunately, the prospects don't look immediately promising, so I have a feeling that I have a wait ahead of me (whether something comes at the end of the wait, or not)... and so I feel like I'm back in high school... hopelessly devoted to a guy who just doesn't feel the same or wouldn't know how to pursue me if he did.

But the truth is that I've never really dealt with my tendency to be consumed by feelings for a guy when he doesn't reciprocate. Honestly, I thought I was in the clear with Jason and that I would never have to deal with those types of feelings again... I'd found him and I was getting married and I wouldn't have to play the dating/emotional limbo anymore.

Well, God had other plans and now I'm faced with what I would consider to be an automatic, but immature response to my growing feelings for someone. So how do I deal with this so that I don't drive him crazy when I'm around him, and so I don't drive myself crazy when I'm not around him?

I know that I can have peace in the knowledge that God knows his heart, my heart, and His plan for both of our futures... and I know that I can have joy as I get to know him better and more fully appreciate who God has made him to be. I guess I just wish that were enough for me... because I feel like it should be... I guess all I can do is pray that God will make that enough for me.