The H-Bomb

Okay, so you know when they tested the h-bomb, they knew it was going to be a big explosion, but it ended up being a lot bigger than they expected? Well, I was at the testing of an H-bomb today.

So, I knew I was going to be seeing Jason (my ex, who I dated really truly seriously for 2 years) whom I hadn't seeen for 7 months (its been 11 months since we broke up) at Luke and Brittany's wedding today (Yay, they're married!). I knew that seeing him would be difficult for me, but I didn't think it would be anything more than a slightly awkward conversation and a familiar hug.

Well, guess what, he has a girlfriend. Wow, I really didn't expect that so soon... even though its been almost a year. I guess I always thought I'd be the first. So, of course, there's the normal "I'm single, but my ex is back in a relationship" feeling, but beyond that I surprised myself. I actually was not at all surprised at his choice (I know her, by the way, and always thought they would be cute together -even when he and I were dating- mostly because his best friend just married her sister).

Anyway, besides not being surprised, I realized that the smile on my face was genuine. I sat there staring at him trying to figure out what I was feeling and all I could do was genuinely smile at him. I haven't figured it all out yet, but I think that's a good sign.